Last 2 weeks and a Hysterectomy (my be T.M.I. for some people)

Almost 3 weeks ago I went in to the both my medical doctor and my OB. I saw my medical doctor for some GI issues I was having so she decided to run some blood work. I was fine with that and went on to my next appointment my O.B. for my regular check up. I take hormones so I go in very 6 months to check in. While there she decided to do a biopsy of my uterus and cervix. I had no idea they could do those in the doctors office but they can and I was extremely supersized that it don't hurt as bad as other things they have done to me. Not thinking much about it I went on with my day. The next morning my doctor called first thing saying there was something up with my liver and they wanted to do a CT scan! So I scheduled it for Friday Ken's next day off and to discuses the results on Monday the 14th in her office. A little concerned but thinking it was not that serious. Then late Wednesday afternoon my OB called and said she wanted to set up an appointment to come in as soon as possible to do some blood work and then talk with her. So I made an appointment on Friday a few hours before my CT scan. Again I was not that worried I figured it was something to do with my hormones or something weird like early menopause or I think you need a D.N.C again.  Well Friday came and I went to talk with my O.B. and well it was something to be worried about. They found pre-cancerous cell in both my cervix and uterus. http://wellescent.com/health_blog/do_i_have_cancer_or_not_and_the_precancerous_cop_out
She was also worried about the amount and length of my last period which I still have that started back in late December! She said we recommend a hysterectomy soon! So I meet the surgeon (who is a year younger than me by the way) right away. She examined me and looked over everything and said we can do this Monday! My mouth dropped to the floor and I said no way. I explained that I needed to find child care and help. So she scheduled it for March 25th 2 weeks away exactly. She also scheduled an ultrasound to do on Monday the 14th since I already had an appointment that day. I had to stop taking my hormones and other medications right away. Which has caused to worse cramps you could ever imagine! Ken and I were still kinda in shock when Monday rolled around. We had a friend to stay with the kids and Ken and I headed back to Kaiser. We did the ultrasound first where they found cysts on my ovaries that I already new I had. They also decided that do to some other issues the surgery could no longer be done vaginally. I was a little bummed. Basically that means an operation similar to a c-section. So recovery is going to take much longer than I hope. Ken and I are still coming to terms with the recovers time but we will survive I hope. After all this we went on to my next appointment the results of the CT scan. Where we found out that I must have had a virus a while back and it played havoc on my liver and all should be fine I just need to do blood work again in a few weeks to check on it. But she said the they found some spots on both of my lungs and wanted to do a CT scan of my chest and to come back at 7pm. At this point I was emotionally done and I felt extremely overwhelmed. Ken and I just could not believe what was going on. It was almost funny.  We went back that night and they did the CT scan of my chest and then we had to wait again. Then on that Wednesday my O.B.'s office called and said I need to come in the Wednesday before my surgery to do blood work and have an EKG done. Great more things to do. I was starting to freak out because we still did not have the CT results. Then my doctor finally called me about the lung CT scan and said they think it is scaring from when I had pneumonia really bad as a child. They want to do a biopsy and redo the CT scan in 6 months! Relief finally. I can live with scaring not a problem. I finally felt some weight lifted and started focusing on getting ready for my surgery that was coming much sooner than expected.
Yes this all happened in a matter of less than 2 weeks. A crazy emotional ride. I am still not really processing any of it yet. I am not attached to my uterus at all its done its job to healthy beautiful kids what else could i ask for. yes I am only 34 but its better than waiting a few year and then have cancer all over my body. This is much easier to deal with and handle now while I am young. I will not feel less like a WOMEN! What does that mean anyway? My whole life from teenage years until now its done nothing but cause problems and a lot of pain! I am happy to see it go. I am a little concerned if they have to take my ovaries though. I am quite young to be on all hormones for the rest of my life and I know that they can cause breast cancer. But we will deal with that if it happens.
Out of all of this the one thing I keep thinking about and worrying about is Michael. This will have the biggest impact on him. I will not be able to pick him up for almost 4 weeks! He is already so frustrated and mad a lot of the time I am afraid this may make it 10 times worse for him. Yes Ken or someone will be around to help take care of him but I don't think Ken or anyone else knows how bad and how much energy I put in for Michael each day let alone each hour. I also know that it will be impossible for me not to help. Everyone keeps saying that it will be good for him and maybe it will but I still feel extremely uneasy about everything for Michael. the only other person besides me that has seen Michael at his worse and has dealt with him is my grandmother. She is worried to because she told me just last night "on his bad days it day really bad who is going to want to watch him?" I wish she was 20 years younger so she could! I know Michael can get through this but we have worked so hard to get to the place we are right now and I would hate for him to regress after all that hard work HE put in. I know Kaylee will be fine. She can do almost everything for herself and she understands whats going on. She is my resilient little girl who can adapt to anything. Ken is a wonderful father and loves his kids I just hope this experience will help him love on his children even more and not be a an overwhelming one.